Thanks friends for keeping the discussion on.
To me, violence has many faces. I experienced the delicate one which made me feel I am not tall, I am not beautiful, my skin doesnt glow, I got no brains, I cant speak good English, I cant cook, I cant decor the house etc etc; I was never physically hurt but I was sad most of the times. I started believing that I am worthless. I forgot that I used to work and do have a masters. I lost all my confidence and now looking for a support to regain and have faith in myself.
Sanju, I knew he was married but I did not know how would he treat me in front of his White wife and my 'Indian mentality' was unacceptable to him. I never knew about 'their understanding'. I was said 'its all my khayali pulao'. I knew his limitations but I do have my limitation too and I do not believe that I do deserve the treatment that I am getting.
Not everybody is blessed with a supportive family/friend. So, I found Kiran for help with hope that they would not leave me alone after I leave the house. I really wish I read more things about Kiran and other NPOs who work well.
Looking forward.
KD